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thatdemonbee · 1 year ago

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Teehee I'm actually alive just had a rough year and nearly got sent to a mental hospital

#i dont think my dad was actually gonna send me but #he was thinking abt it 💀#anyways went to a psychiatrist #got antidepresso pills for over a month #failed a class and had to take remedials #had to go to the school guidance counselor weekly #but now im good lol #also i think i forgor my pw to discord and it gives me horrible anxiety #so im probably not rlly gonna talk there #or maybe i will after a while idk i might just make a new one #anyways im into another fandom now so thats new #bee talks shit

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crispycreambacon · 8 days ago

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Hi y'all. I hope you all are well :)

Happy new year first of all. If you're still here with us, thank you. Thank you for getting through 2024, and thank you for being here. I hope 2025 will be kind to you 🫂

Second of all, I'm not sure if anyone is still here, but if there is someone: I'm sorry for disappearing so suddenly. Life really got in the way due to college, and I can't guarantee this next semester of college won't be very busy for me either. I've been trying to work on my personal life, and part of that was avoiding social media. I'd like to come back, but I'll be reducing the amount of time I spend on here.

If you'd like to know more about what else has happened to me, read on. If not, I wish you well, and I hope you'll still welcome me with open arms.

CW // TRANSPHOBIA, MENTAL HEALTH

If I can be vulnerable for a minute: things have gotten really bad for me last December. I came out to my mom, and it went so badly that I ran away for a little bit. I came back for personal reasons, but now I live with parents who refuse to acknowledge my identity and continue to refer to me with my deadname and AGAB. Moreover, I got triggered really badly at some point during the holidays, and it has led to me realizing I can't keep living like this. I need help.

Thankfully, my college provides mental health services, and from what I heard from other students, they're pretty good. They also provide tests which I definitely need. I can't keep living the undiagnosed lifestyle, y'all, I need to know what's going on with my brain shsldhskshs... I have some clues though. Nothing definitive yet, but I am pretty confident in my suspicions, and whether I'm right or wrong, I just want to figure out what's going on and manage it, start to heal and move on from the trauma I've endured both as a child and now.

I hope this update will suffice. I'm eternally grateful for my friends. They have kept me from absolutely losing it, and they have stuck with me at my worst moments. I love them so dearly, and if they are reading this: thank you :)💞

And to everyone else, thank you for taking the time to read. I'd love to know how y'all have been, so please let me know. I love you all. Please stay safe, and may life bring you the happiness you deserve 🫂

#update #mental health #chris p fried what?!#to the tag readers: hello :) I'll try to not talk too much in the tags and keep things in the actual post #but here's a little something for you: there's a possibility i may be plural o+<#i'm unsure but there's a chance i have partial did and i don't want to dismiss that. especially when there are voices in my head #sigh... oh also ocd. that's another thing i'm suspecting. specifically primarily obsessional ocd (aka pure o ocd)#gosh i really thought autism adhd depression and c/ptsd were the only things plaguing my brain and my life went “lol. lmao even.”#all of this is speculative. i'll update you once my initial tests come back and maybe i can afford an appointment to a psychiatrist.#i hope so anyway. that is all. thank you for reading again.

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e77y · 8 months ago

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We did it Joe (OCD diagnosis)

#cried my eyes out but it went well I think #psychiatrists are kinda scary but she was nice. just like. I felt like she was judging me in the moment 😭#but in retrospect (sitting in the parking lot lol) she was nice…#I didn’t really verablize everything I wanted to buuut I still got a prescription soooo 💪#we’ll see how it goes. I’m really scared of medication lol but I’m gonna take half a pill at first bc I am a Baby #anyway feeling good (?) now :’) it’s a weird feeling #yay #she also ordered ADHD testing for me so ummm. we’ll see! I think it’s gonna be super expensive copay #even now I’m really worried about how much the copay for this is gonna be bc they’re just billing me o_o #she said the prescription was cheap but didn’t tell me how much soooo… 🤞😅#ellyposting

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runawaymun · 9 months ago

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government??????????????#so there's still some kind of payment???#anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out?#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that>#UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on'#uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

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sunnys-aesthetic · 9 months ago

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tw for vent art below i suppose.

ADHD

#vent art #tw vent #adhd #adhd awareness #i had a really shitty rough day #and have been for the past few months. and was getting better but #this one sure did hit a nerve today #todays appointment went swimmingly and i just needed a form of way to vent #these were some of her exact words too.#ill be looking into other psychiatrists soon #personal #anyways #mental health awareness #emotional health awareness

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chenziee · 10 months ago

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One of these days, I will rewatch/reread snk and then write a fix-it where Eren gets exactly what he deserves (intense therapy)

#snk #eren jeager #my baby my son #he SO didn't deserve that #like how did no one go 'omfg this kid is 15 and saying all this stuff we need a psychiatrist NOW'#i will never get over the time skip scene at the shooting range #eren: mass murder is okay #mikasa: i want to fuck you so bad #armin: yeah so anyway #like no??#they dismissed all the signs so bad and totally left eren i this suicidal-homicidal spiral #and then they were oh-so-surprised eren went totally insane and did exactly what he said he would #and hanji god #girl i love you so much but holy shit the time skip meeting #eren #eren: how about--#hanji: shut up eren #eren: but actually--#hanji: not now eren #eren: LISTEN TO ME #hanji: i told you to shut up #eren: I KNOW THINGS LET ME TALK #hanji: WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING #like how do you wonder that he stopped talking and sharing his plans and ideas and just spiralled by himself #of course he did i mean??#that child is walking trauma that not only went unchecked it was actively encouraged for years abd then he was told to shut up #what did you EXPECT #hisu the MVP the only one who was really there when she could..#(plis levi because i'm still delusional and there's not enough canon material on their interaction during the timeskip to prove me wrong)

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electoons · 3 months ago

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my psychiatrist was trying to explain that a lot of my depression and anxiety probably stems from my trying to force myself into a (neurotypical/allistic) mold that i wasn't made for and that it's nothing to be ashamed of and she listed elon musk and bill gates as my fellow autists and that made me cry harder

#mia.txt #i wasnt like crying bc i was diagnosed with ASD it was more just crying cause i cry all the time now and it was a cathartic session #oh i forgot to mention it but god i cant even describe the weird feeling of being told im actually autistic (UNPROMPTED)#after like. wondering for so many years but being too scared to bring it up to any psychiatrist #so i was just like well maybe i am or maybe i just have adhd. thats ok im not too worried about it :)#and then i was just like talking about my sensory issues being exacerbated by my meds #and then she started asking me more questions abt my sensory issues and social problems and then she pointed out that i #had been rocking back and forth the entire time. which i genuinely dont even notice anymore like i was like oh shit i sure am doing that #and she basically went through the whole questionnaire and was like has no one really ever brought up the possibility that you were #on the spectrum. because you definitely are #and i was like 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk! im not sure #but it was probably pretty damning that the one other time i had gotten tested he literally gave up bc the questions were too vague #oh but anyway like no that doesnt help actually 😔#i really don't think its shame-based like i KNOW im Different(TM) thats not shocking to me #but i do expend an insane amount of mental and emotional energy trying to be Normal and pretend i am not autistic #the masking that is causing me so much stress is the very thing that prevented me from being diagnosed earlier lmfaooo

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natjennie · 8 months ago

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I don't feel goooood :(

#I've been really nauseous for like. over a week now #two weeks? what is time #but anyway. that and ive been having some like really deep thoughts about my mom since her surgery #and my dad keeps being a dick and I should be able to do more around the house #to help them out but I'm so fucking tired. and my back hurts. and I'm sad.#and the nausea. as before mentioned.#and I have a therapy appt on Thurs and a psychiatrist appt next week #and I haven't been doing any of the things I should #and I'm really upset about that because they're gonna be disappointed in me #it's all so embarrassing and shameful.#and I'm 23 and unemployed and I didn't finish college #and my rooms really messy but I don't ever have the energy to clean it #which is just making me feel even more useless and grubby and pathetic #and I'm fat and I'm never gonna be able to do anything about it #and my skin hurts all the time in eight different places #and today we went out to do something important but I forgot the papers #and then I was going to the wrong place and I missed like 3 turns in a row #I've been having a really fucking hard time lately #but it feels like I say that all the time. so.#whatever I'm sorry to rant #to show therapist

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itsays · 11 months ago

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it is literally so ramdom that i majored in fucking marketing. like. do you know me? advertising ruins my life brother! but i will say i did find it fun it was like someone was openly explaining me how and why propaganda works and how the successful brands on the world knew how to create necessities rather than satisfy them and it was like a big anti capitalist propaganda except it ended with something along the lines of making money

#more luisa lore even though my fingers feel like they're floating this is so freaky fjdjjsbshhs #anyways. i was almost a hs drop out psychiatrist blah blah and by the time i graduated i just want to be a slump the rest of my life #so a friend said i should study marketing and i said ok #i was 17 and dumb as hell. i could've at least went to the commies college but i ended up with the rich kids

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eyes-of-nine · 2 years ago

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"oh you don't actually want to be on meds, trust me I would know ^v^" well I also don't want to be depressed, Courtney

#vent #girl why are you assuming I would want to take meds if I didn't feel I needed them wtf #heard this comment one too many times and it's always from people that were able to get proper help and are on meds #it just feels hypocritical like there's an underlining message of don't be dramatic you don't have it THAT bad #anyways had my first appointment with a psychiatrist today it went surprisingly well #wyatt rambles

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lovelyisadora · 1 year ago

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y’all how do I email my advisor after three months of ghosting him and on week 2 of the term to tell him I don’t have my edited proposal to submit (he returned comments to me in July 😬) or that I’m not registered for anything yet and need to know what to register for

#I’m gonna fail grad school I swear #I did so well my first year and everything went downhill fast after that #anyway I’ll just. email him I guess #my psychiatrist already said he’d write me a doctors note if I needed it #I’m just gonna be like sir I had a family/health/mental crisis and kinda had a breakdown and checked out for three months I’m sorry #and then tell him I don’t want to talk about it I just want to get back on track (something I’ve been trying to do since March)

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skenpiel · 1 year ago

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auuahhghhh. fpr some reason i couldnt sleep at all. so i went to see my psychologist on 0 hours of sleep and also funny thing he told me, verbatim, “shut up, bitch!” while mimicking a backhanded slap. and the best thing is when i say verbatim i mean he literally said that in english kdjskdbvsmnf

#it was a joke and he only said it cause he knew i wouldnt get offended. but it was really funny #psychologists say the funniest shit to me #when i was 13 a psychiatrist told me i was as evil as sauron #im taking that wildly out of context for comedic effect‚ but it works‚ doesnt it?#this one there wasnt really any context to though. i said i cant go outside without any reason to BE outside #and he just went ‘shut up bitch like hell you cant’#which like. ok true lol #anyways. im gonna try to get some sleep now…… waah

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random-mizu-fan · 2 years ago

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Nobody probably cares but it's my birthday today :D

#I had exams too and ON MY BIRTHDAY 😭😭#But anyways after that we gave pizza and cake to my teachers #I then went to get my anti tetanus injection and had a session w my psychiatrist! He's so awesome #We talked abt AkiHaru and he just vibed and omg he just omg ilhsm /platonic he's like my grand pa

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monsterbisexual · 2 years ago

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things have been scary n hard n a lot but i do feel good sometimes..theres good things too they might not seem like big things or as meaningful but it still matters n makes a difference! things might get scarier n harder etc overall n probs will at least sometimes.. even when it feels like things shld be easy theyre usually not but im trying ! n thats smth i suppose

#p #work was so bad today had to socialize w family which went ok but not ideal situation for me after #might see a friend tomorrow n walk my dog n thats makin me anxious for a few reasons but mostly cuz idk how to talk to my friends anymore #for reasons that arent even only just me being a freak #the next day im having cavities fixed n itll take hrs #i rly to set up a dr appointment n its been ages cuz even for a normal appointment its v stressful n scary n bad for me #for a variety of reasons but i also just fuckin hate it #n this is cuz i think there coulddd be smth more serious goin on that ive been trying to ignore n avoid bringing up #cuz what if it is actually smth #n i cant even go on abt that rn (tired) but ive been..thinkin abt it #aaaand i need to try n get an appointment w a psychiatrist so i can maybe get back on meds again cuz i think itd be a good idea #like i think on em i didnt think they made a big difference but i feel like im way worse now off em so #n i hope i dont have to go thru the regular dr abt that cuz i got my refills thru them but i guess ill be seein her anyway n overwhelmed!!!#oh n the friend thing is scary cuz my lil group is all broken up now n i feel like im choosing sides when i hang out w some of em now #which sucks so thats the main thing abt that. ok enough bye <3 #idk what the original post not the tags even meant im tryin to be . positive! or smth jeez :/#dlt ltr !

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rustinsscohles · 7 days ago

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i was looking up more dyslexia stuff tonight and just. how did it take 28 years you guys. how.

#and it's not just the cutesy “oh letters swap places” dyslexia #it's the fact that i was straining to read and comprehend basic english earlier tonight so much so that i got a headache #laid down to take a nap and fell asleep for an hour and a half but that's not dyslexia's fault #anyway. yeah. i'm just. idk! there are so many things that like. idk after talking with my psychiatrist today it was so funny #she hadn't seen the report yet and so i handed it over to her and she was reading over it and stopped and goes #“they marked you for a learning disability right?” and i was like yeah in reading and she was like “okay yeah thank goodness”#but like not in a mean way just in a “girl you saw these scores right? like someone went over them with you?” and i was like how do i tell #her that's the main reason i went to get diagnosed in the first place 😭 like yeah the adhd too but like. fuck! i cannot read!#my fluency scores y'all. like. again you cannot flunk those kind of assessments but i very much did flunk the reading portion #anyway this has been a lifelong thing so i'm glad we're finally getting it sorted but dear god #and i get it though because when you're a kid you're all learning to read so you probably can't catch it but when you're in high school #and all your peers are zooming past you because they're reading at the right level and you're still struggling? yeah.#i'm rambling again aren't i

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 3 months ago

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Okay I probably won't post as many updates for this project as I did the TMA scarf, or maybe I will, because I can and I love this fucking shawl. Eventually it will look like this:

But with blue as the main color!! I know my poll decided red but my heart decided blue. Right now it looks a little wonky cuz it's still on the needles, but eventually it will look cool as fuck. I got to learn increases and decreases for this project, which I'm very happy with.

#so im back onmy meds which brought back my creativity and motivation to do things #who couldve guessed #when i first started taking my second mood stabilizer an effect was increased motivation by balancing dopamine levels #i was so surpised when i woke up and eanted to go for a walk to the coffee shop #and then i checked out a store id always wanted to go into on my way back. and that night i went to a concert for an artist id never heard #i didnt like the artist but that venue was a cool one #usually drew very small crowds and the artists would talk to you beforehand #i was clearly the only person there that wasnt a friend or family bcuz they all cheered when i came in #the intensity of that effect chilled out as i kept taking it but it still helps #and it inspired me to find and make a new knitting project. for ren faire next year with my gf #so not only am i being creative but im planning for the future #and i fixed my sleep schedule #my psychiatrist seemed surprised when we talked yesterday #bcuz i was doing so much better #maam i lied to you in the first appointment and now im actually taking my meds..thats why the sudden change #anyway we love meds in this household. bless meds #and we love this fcking shawl its so damn cool

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